Friday, November 13, 2009

I am Dying Right Along with the Scots

SPOILER ALERT - Dinna read unless you have read up to Chapter 44 in Dragonfly in Amber.

Rupert  just died and I am dying right along with him. I know what's coming. I can feel what's coming. I have been reading for a while now but just had to stop and blog. I have to talk about this. My stomach hurts. And if I were to look at a photo of Jamie, his image would be fading, much like Marty McFly in "Back to the Future". And I can't stand it. I almost want to close the book and walk away, so I don't have to go through the inevitable. But I have to, don't I?  Would it do any good to pray to God to make it end differently, like Jesus did in the Mount of Olives? Not very likely. I have a feeling I'm about to meet my very own Judas... and something tells me he goes by the name Jack Randall.

OK - Things I love:

I love that Jamie views Claire as his equal. And I love that Jamie views Claire as a strong woman and never treats her like she's weaker than him. He let her go with the English... and I think that speaks volumes. Don't get me wrong; there is a very slight part of me that wants to scream "How can you let her do this?!" but then I come to my senses and think "Thank God he let her do this!" I'm sure she'll come out of that OK. (I think I'm sure?)

I love that we got to see Rupert again. I was waiting for him through this whole book.  And although I'm devastated he had to die, I just love that we got to experience that brotherhood among Jamie, Dougal and him at the last; it was beautiful.

I love that Claire is such an awesome care giver and can fix - or diagnose - anyone. She is one BAD ASSED you-know-what and this series should be required reading for EVERY FEMALE ON THIS PLANET.

And I love the following exchange, to the point where my heart literally aches:

He looked down at me helplessly, rage and fear mingled on his face. And under it all, a trace of humor at the underlying irony of the situation.
"I am a sassenach, after all," I said, seeing it. 
He touched my face briefly with a rueful smile. 
"Aye, mo duinne. But you're my sassenach."

OK I have to go back and read. But I'll be back later today. I plan to finish this book by this evening. And then I'm going to need help. Lots and lots of help. Maybe in the way of Santa Margherita... I canna be sure just yet, ken?


  1. Aye, Carol, I was the same - I couldn't bear to keep reading at this point knowing what has coming all too soon and all of them powerless to change it. I wasted an entire Sunday afternoon avoiding reading the book so I wouldn't have to go there. One of my very favourite moments is in that church scene - when Jamie's first inquiry when he gets to the church is looking for Claire. I love that.

  2. Oh Molly... this was one of my FAVORITE parts of the series. I want to go back and read it again.

  3. Rupert. Dougal. Heartbroken. Every. Time.
    "This dying hurts me, Dougal. I would have it over."
    Absolutely stunning, that scene.

    1. Sigh...Thanks for posting, Chicacisne. Not only did I reread this post and get a bit teary...but I fixed the heck out of it! Wow - some of my writing way back during Dragonfly was a mess! ;)